I keep on choosing the wrong people in order to not get hurt if they leave.
This way I will never fall in love again. I'm so afraid to lose again someone I love. I can't handle so much pain again.
I see the old people I make friends with and what I end up thinking when I look into their eyes is, what am I going to do if they die. They might die soon.
But is it worth stop living out of fear? Is it worth stop loving out of fear?
Something in me is afraid that love ends up in death. Will I ever be able to open my heart, to walk without fear to lose loved ones, to feel this so damn hard heartbroken pain?